I feel like blogging this time. a.) Because I'm pretty bored. b.) To keep this blog updated. c.) To entertain my dearest stalker. haha That's the reason why I changed my name, I mean my nickname.

I still have lots of things to do and yet I prefer staying here in front of the computer doing such silly things. I just love wasting time and cramming. And who cares by the way?!

My head is battling with my heart. I'm confused, very much confused. I don't know what to follow, is it my heart that shouts his name, our memories? Or my mind that whispers pain and dissatisfaction? I can't do anything, I can't decide. Maybe its the time for me to just go with the flow and let fate decide. I can't take it anymore. I'm tired, lost, mixed and so on. Should I ask for God's help again, just like before? Should I talk to him again all night, asking for signs, asking for answers? Or should I just shut up and make my self busy and pretend that nothings wrong to show how strong I am.

Until know, I still hope that life can be a fairy tale too that begins with once upon a time and ends with happily ever after.

Labels: emotions, love, problems, rants